Some of us find beauty and love in everyone and everything. It is both and blessing and a curse. Most people presume our feelings to be disingenuous. Truth is our hearts really are that big!
As I contemplate my life post-divorce, I note that as I wandered the earth “I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure; yet when I surveyed, everything was meaningless, a chasing under the wind” Ecclesiastes 2:12 In fact, “I’ve squandered my wealth in wild living. I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. I am the prodigal son, wishing to return back home.” Luke 15:11
Looked for HIM in all the wrong places. Turns out, he was always there… What sets him apart? He meets the usual basic criteria for me. (1) I find him physically irresistible, and there is (2) inexplicable fire, chemistry, soul connection. Beyond that, though, this time, I respect HIM! This is a rare occurrence as I find very few men to be respectable. Few are the men, who like my father, or my brother-in-law do what they say & say what they mean. In the quindecinnial I have known HIM, I have yet to hear a bad report or reproach against him. Instead, his faith is unshakable. I know because, when I became a stumbling block for him, he instructed we pray. HE feels like home, always has. Could HE be the (final) one?
So then, what will I do? Not a thing. I wish to re-dedicate myself to God. For I have seen many things in my life, I have never seen the righteous forsaken. I will be in the temple of God, awaiting the unfolding of my destiny.
Dearest reader, I wish you the same peace I feel now.
It is well.
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